Well, folks. Life right now is a little tumultuous, I'll say. Currently, I'm doing some work on nights at KU Med Center in the CV PCU, which has been phenomenal so far. The staff is so great, and everyone has been really welcoming, and I'm learning so much. There's been a lot that's happened over the past few months, both great and terrible, but life is about lessons and learning from them, and that's exactly what I've chosen to do. For those of you who know what happened, we'll keep it at that. Someday, I'll be able to divulge, but right now, it's still a little too fresh, and my pride a little too great.
As far as the job hunt goes, it's not. Since I'm moving, I'll just have to figure it out from square one and do a LOT of couch-surfing before I find my first big-girl job. And if I fail, I'll move back here and start all over. Trust me, I'm no stranger to that concept. It's been an interesting summer so far: one of reflection, learning, and definitely stretching my mind and body. Lots of good, good life experiences have and are taking place. I can only hope that I will be this lucky and blessed for the rest of my life.
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June 23, 2011
January 15, 2011
New Year, New Life
And so, it is 2011. Whoa.
I think the biggest thing I've been thinking about is the end of college. Seriously, WHERE did the time go?!
A lot of things will be happening in the next 9 months. A LOT.
1. I have decided to move to New York!
It's pretty scary, but really exciting at the same time, especially since I'm going by myself. I think it will be such a great thing to go alone, to be honest. It will be like going to Ronda all over again, without the language barrier, and lots more people! Also, I have come to the realization that I probably won't be living in Manhattan, which I'm fine with actually. Yeah, it super glamorous and there's tons to do, but it is SO expensive. I've been looking at sublets and room shares, but the idea of living with someone I don't know is kind of scary. I really lucked out with my roommates from college, but going to a city of 15 million people and trying to find a roommate is a completely different story. And I really want to have a dog.
So, en fin, I am looking in other boroughs like Brooklyn and Queens. They are way cheaper, and I think I'd like a place to escape to so that I can go into the city once in awhile, and live in a place that's not constantly surrounded by throngs of tourists. It will be more like having a "home" rather than "an apartment in the city".
The other thing that's so hard about finding a place to live, right now at least, is that I can't be there physically. I can't see the apartments I've been checking out, or the areas they are in, and obviously I want to be sure I'm going to be in a safe place so I don't have to carry a shank around.
2. I will be graduating in like... 4 months. With a bachelor's degree. THAT IS INSANITY. I'll have to get a grown up job. Sad face. It will have its perks, but finding a grown up job is so daunting. I've been looking at lists of New York hospitals to see where I want to apply, and they are miles long! I don't even know where to begin looking! And to top it all off, being a new grad and trying to get a job sucks for everyone, but looking at job postings, they all want "at least a year of experience". Riddle me this, hospital: how am I supposed to have experience when no one will give me experience?! So frustrating.
3. Boards. Oh dear. Thinking about boards gives me a stomach ache. I hate standardized exams to begin with, but to take one that decides the rest of your life is like... 1390817320498x scarier. I've already started studying, so hopefully little by little I'll be able to know enough and review enough that I will pass with flying colors the first time.
4. Animals: recently (again) I have become dog-crazed. I am constantly frequenting craigslist and petfinder looking for animals. I tried adopting an animal last summer, and it didn't work out. I was so heartbroken that I couldn't keep little Winnie. My schedule was still pretty irregular, and it really is like having a child. I just wasn't ready I don't think. Living in New York, though, probably alone, I will definitely want a doggie to be there when I come home, wagging their little tail and happy to see me. SO MUCH BETTER THAN A BOYFRIEND.
5. Training. Dear LORD there is a long process for getting a NY License. Just reading about all the crap I have to do gives me a headache, but it will definitely be worth it in the end. First, I have to apply and send them some money, and then I have to do all the training. And all this has to be done before I can even apply for a job. I feel like I'm in a video game and time is running out. I know in my head that it's not, but it's so overwhelming.
Life's going to be a bit tumultuous and scary for a bit, but it's nothing I can't handle. It will just require a lot of planning and praying and wishing on lucky stars that everything works out. Also, I will be having the most kick-ass farewell party EVER, so you better show up.
I think the biggest thing I've been thinking about is the end of college. Seriously, WHERE did the time go?!
A lot of things will be happening in the next 9 months. A LOT.
1. I have decided to move to New York!
It's pretty scary, but really exciting at the same time, especially since I'm going by myself. I think it will be such a great thing to go alone, to be honest. It will be like going to Ronda all over again, without the language barrier, and lots more people! Also, I have come to the realization that I probably won't be living in Manhattan, which I'm fine with actually. Yeah, it super glamorous and there's tons to do, but it is SO expensive. I've been looking at sublets and room shares, but the idea of living with someone I don't know is kind of scary. I really lucked out with my roommates from college, but going to a city of 15 million people and trying to find a roommate is a completely different story. And I really want to have a dog.
So, en fin, I am looking in other boroughs like Brooklyn and Queens. They are way cheaper, and I think I'd like a place to escape to so that I can go into the city once in awhile, and live in a place that's not constantly surrounded by throngs of tourists. It will be more like having a "home" rather than "an apartment in the city".
The other thing that's so hard about finding a place to live, right now at least, is that I can't be there physically. I can't see the apartments I've been checking out, or the areas they are in, and obviously I want to be sure I'm going to be in a safe place so I don't have to carry a shank around.
2. I will be graduating in like... 4 months. With a bachelor's degree. THAT IS INSANITY. I'll have to get a grown up job. Sad face. It will have its perks, but finding a grown up job is so daunting. I've been looking at lists of New York hospitals to see where I want to apply, and they are miles long! I don't even know where to begin looking! And to top it all off, being a new grad and trying to get a job sucks for everyone, but looking at job postings, they all want "at least a year of experience". Riddle me this, hospital: how am I supposed to have experience when no one will give me experience?! So frustrating.
3. Boards. Oh dear. Thinking about boards gives me a stomach ache. I hate standardized exams to begin with, but to take one that decides the rest of your life is like... 1390817320498x scarier. I've already started studying, so hopefully little by little I'll be able to know enough and review enough that I will pass with flying colors the first time.
4. Animals: recently (again) I have become dog-crazed. I am constantly frequenting craigslist and petfinder looking for animals. I tried adopting an animal last summer, and it didn't work out. I was so heartbroken that I couldn't keep little Winnie. My schedule was still pretty irregular, and it really is like having a child. I just wasn't ready I don't think. Living in New York, though, probably alone, I will definitely want a doggie to be there when I come home, wagging their little tail and happy to see me. SO MUCH BETTER THAN A BOYFRIEND.
5. Training. Dear LORD there is a long process for getting a NY License. Just reading about all the crap I have to do gives me a headache, but it will definitely be worth it in the end. First, I have to apply and send them some money, and then I have to do all the training. And all this has to be done before I can even apply for a job. I feel like I'm in a video game and time is running out. I know in my head that it's not, but it's so overwhelming.
Life's going to be a bit tumultuous and scary for a bit, but it's nothing I can't handle. It will just require a lot of planning and praying and wishing on lucky stars that everything works out. Also, I will be having the most kick-ass farewell party EVER, so you better show up.
February 8, 2010
Here we are again
So... Here we are again. New semester, new classes, new schedules. Don't get me wrong I love change but sometimes it is just difficult. Especially with this weather!! It has been the most dreary, gray, horrible winter. Well... It probably hasn't been that different from any other winter, i think I just hate winter more every year. And lately i have had a lot of time to think, which is never a good thing. I have been getting pretty lonely, which is so lame to say but it's pretty true. So to remedy that I decided to adopt a dog! She is so adorable, I really hope I get her. I have to have some things approved before she can move in with me, and I think it will take some time for her to adjust. She came from a puppy mill so she's pretty scared of people, but I think I will just love on her til she's not scared anymore. I am scared and excited at the same time. It's a big responsibility, but I think I'll be able to handle it. Wish me luck!!
August 11, 2009
all moved in and ready to go!
i am officially away from the nest! i finally have my own apartment, and i can finally say this is MY place. i have waited quite awhile for this. it's so nice to be able to settle down somewhere, and my roommate is amazing. we are both sarcastic and ridiculous, and we make nurse jokes and no one laughs at us. it's marvelous.
i am a little nervous about starting nursing school though. i know i can handle it, it's just kind of scary because i don't know what to expect, especially with clinicals. and i really hope i got all my crap in on time because if not, then i'm going to be a little screwed for a bit. oops. oh well... i find that flying by the seat of my pants is always a little more fun, though it is stressful sometimes.
we'll see what the future holds for little miss maria. my apartment is surrounded by spanish speaking families, so i'll try to eavesdrop so i can do some maintenance :P. i think that's all for now, i'll keep you posted on the happenings of life as often as i can!
peace, love, and scrubs
Maria
i am a little nervous about starting nursing school though. i know i can handle it, it's just kind of scary because i don't know what to expect, especially with clinicals. and i really hope i got all my crap in on time because if not, then i'm going to be a little screwed for a bit. oops. oh well... i find that flying by the seat of my pants is always a little more fun, though it is stressful sometimes.
we'll see what the future holds for little miss maria. my apartment is surrounded by spanish speaking families, so i'll try to eavesdrop so i can do some maintenance :P. i think that's all for now, i'll keep you posted on the happenings of life as often as i can!
peace, love, and scrubs
Maria
July 20, 2009
it's been awhile...
i never write on this thing. mainly because i have five million other "about me" websites on facebook and myspace and all those other things. i do like to have an outlet to just say what i want to say. it's quite nice.
well... since last i wrote, i have lived in spain, and lost a job because of the recession, so life has been a bit tumultuous as of late, but i'm loving it anyway.
living in spain was the most glorious experience ever. i lived with a family in the south, Ronda, in the middle of the mountains. it was so beautiful there. i learned a lot from my family, and home life was pretty difficult at times. i think they forgot that i'm an adult sometimes, and my spanish was never that great to begin with, so we had some trouble communicating things. the school was amazing, and the people i met there were so great. my teachers were such interesting people, and i learned so much from them. i experienced a lot while i was over there, and for that i'm extremely thankful. i met some extremely open minded, educated, just-plain-cool people while i was over there.. i wish i didn't have to come back to the USA and start living in the real world.
i am starting nursing school here in about three weeks. it's exciting and scary at the same time. i'm coming down the home stretch for school. it's so hard to imagine my life without school. i don't know what i'll be doing when i graduate, just working, but i don't know where or for how long, and i'm ok with that. i learned while i was in europe that life is much more fun when you fly by the seat of your pants. in moderation of course.
this summer has been really great for getting to see old friends. and realize how few friends i have from high school left. i'm so glad that all the people i don't want to see anymore have been 'weeded out' so to speak. it's so refreshing. i don't think i have much more to say other than i'm extremely thankful, and we'll see what the future brings!
paz, amor, y que viva españa!
well... since last i wrote, i have lived in spain, and lost a job because of the recession, so life has been a bit tumultuous as of late, but i'm loving it anyway.
living in spain was the most glorious experience ever. i lived with a family in the south, Ronda, in the middle of the mountains. it was so beautiful there. i learned a lot from my family, and home life was pretty difficult at times. i think they forgot that i'm an adult sometimes, and my spanish was never that great to begin with, so we had some trouble communicating things. the school was amazing, and the people i met there were so great. my teachers were such interesting people, and i learned so much from them. i experienced a lot while i was over there, and for that i'm extremely thankful. i met some extremely open minded, educated, just-plain-cool people while i was over there.. i wish i didn't have to come back to the USA and start living in the real world.
i am starting nursing school here in about three weeks. it's exciting and scary at the same time. i'm coming down the home stretch for school. it's so hard to imagine my life without school. i don't know what i'll be doing when i graduate, just working, but i don't know where or for how long, and i'm ok with that. i learned while i was in europe that life is much more fun when you fly by the seat of your pants. in moderation of course.
this summer has been really great for getting to see old friends. and realize how few friends i have from high school left. i'm so glad that all the people i don't want to see anymore have been 'weeded out' so to speak. it's so refreshing. i don't think i have much more to say other than i'm extremely thankful, and we'll see what the future brings!
paz, amor, y que viva españa!
October 23, 2008
oh chariot...
there really was no reason for that title, but i have been listening to that song a lot. not because it has any particular meaning, but because the song is BA.
aaanyway, i have some exciting news. are you prepared? i hope so, because I'M MOVING TO SPAIN FOR THE SPRING!!! i can't even tell you how excited i am to be going. one of my dreams is to wake up in a place i've never been, somewhere i don't have any ties to, and to meet people and travel and do amazing things. and the opportunity is fast approaching, and i cannot even describe the feeling. it's going to be so awesome!
... too bad i have to make it through the rest of the semester. bah! i have been so busy. i dont' think i've ever been this busy in my entire life. my days are consumed with studying. that's all i do. i barely ever watch tv (which is probably a very good thing), and i don't have much time for anything else. even my weekends are full of studying. the silver lining is that i can honestly call myself a kickass student. because let's face it: i've gotten wayy higher than the class averages on every test i've taken this semester because of my ridiculous studying habits. and i'm proud of it. m-hm.
random side note: i hate the cold. it's just no good. it's been rainy and cold and i'm just not havin' it. grrrr. it is SO not conducive to studying! all i want to do is curl up in my bubble chair and take a nap. too bad i have ANOTHER round of tests next week.
... and the beat goes on.
peace, love, and chai tea lattes!
Maria
aaanyway, i have some exciting news. are you prepared? i hope so, because I'M MOVING TO SPAIN FOR THE SPRING!!! i can't even tell you how excited i am to be going. one of my dreams is to wake up in a place i've never been, somewhere i don't have any ties to, and to meet people and travel and do amazing things. and the opportunity is fast approaching, and i cannot even describe the feeling. it's going to be so awesome!
... too bad i have to make it through the rest of the semester. bah! i have been so busy. i dont' think i've ever been this busy in my entire life. my days are consumed with studying. that's all i do. i barely ever watch tv (which is probably a very good thing), and i don't have much time for anything else. even my weekends are full of studying. the silver lining is that i can honestly call myself a kickass student. because let's face it: i've gotten wayy higher than the class averages on every test i've taken this semester because of my ridiculous studying habits. and i'm proud of it. m-hm.
random side note: i hate the cold. it's just no good. it's been rainy and cold and i'm just not havin' it. grrrr. it is SO not conducive to studying! all i want to do is curl up in my bubble chair and take a nap. too bad i have ANOTHER round of tests next week.
... and the beat goes on.
peace, love, and chai tea lattes!
Maria
September 10, 2008
wow...
it's been awhile. well... i'm in my fall semester. it's more than a little ridiculous on the school front. i'm taking seventeen hours (micro, anatomy, nutrition, and child development plus two labs) and that is keeping me terribly busy. i feel like i live under a rock with my textbooks. i've been up here for almost a month and i think i've watched tv maybe... three times? probably less. i'm always, ALWAYS studying. don't get me wrong, most of what i'm studying is really useful and applicable to my field, which i LOVE, but it's just so much, you know?
i've also been talking to this guy, who shall remain nameless, for about the same amount of time. he seems really sweet, but i kind of worry about him. he's soooo much more invested in it than i am. we aren't even official, and he calls me 'babe' and 'baby'. it makes me feel good to know that someone cares about you that much, but i don't know that i can reciprocate the feelings as strongly. i have serious relationship issues. in fact, i call myself "relationship retarded" because, well, i'm twenty years old, and i've literally never dated anyone. i've been on a grand total of two dates, which were my sophomore year of high school [therefore, they don't really count]. i don't know. i'm just trying to play it by ear.
i have realized, though, that i'm not one of those giddy oh-my-god-i-have-a-bee eff girls, which i'm kind of glad about, because to be honest, i am a bit annoyed by those girls. i think pda's are completely unnecessary. he's coming up to see me this weekend, and he can't stop talking about it, so i know he's excited. i'll be glad to see him. it's just really confusing.
also... i am definitely going to Spain single. [if i get all my paperwork in :P] There is NO WAY i'm going to be in the midst of all those amazingly beautiful men and be tied down to someone thousands of miles away. i should probably let this boy know about that. i just HATE hurting people's feelings. i'm too much of a people pleaser. and every time it screws me over. i just need to learn already!
well... that's my bit, hopefully i'll keep writing when i need a study break.
peace out!
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