so...

i'm considering getting a fish for my apartment. we used to have them when i was little. it was a huge tank and we had all sorts of fish. cardinals, goldfish, tiger fish i think they were called. i remember sitting there watching them swim around in that tank for what seemed like forever. it probably wasn't any more than about 10 minutes since my attention span wasn't that great :P. i never even thought about it until just now.

i am really cheap though, like a bare necessities kind of girl. yeah i'll miss having an animal... a LOT, but i can live. any animal requires monetary maintenance, and i just don't know if i'm willing to put in the few dollars a week to feed it. it could be fun, but we'll see. as i said in the last post: life is too much fun when you fly by the seat of your pants, and i think that's probably what i'll end up doing on this little venture.

how much does it cost to get a fish anyway? i guess i'll just have to find out!

i was just thinking: people's perceptions of you are so strange and interesting. a lot of times they don't really make sense. here's the perfect example: one of my best friends told me that the first time she saw me she thought i would be a total bitch because of my hair. of all things! my hair! i just thought that was hilarious and really interesting. it's weird how we judge people's personalities based on the way they carry themselves, or their hair, or their voice, or what clothes they wear. i'm definitely guilty of it, but i still think it's terribly interesting. ::sigh:: i smell like gasoline and freshly cut grass. i can't decide if i like it or not. have a marvelous rest of the week!

to cottonwood trees and the summer breeze,
Maria

wow...

it's been awhile. well... i'm in my fall semester. it's more than a little ridiculous on the school front. i'm taking seventeen hours (micro, anatomy, nutrition, and child development plus two labs) and that is keeping me terribly busy. i feel like i live under a rock with my textbooks. i've been up here for almost a month and i think i've watched tv maybe... three times? probably less. i'm always, ALWAYS studying. don't get me wrong, most of what i'm studying is really useful and applicable to my field, which i LOVE, but it's just so much, you know?

i've also been talking to this guy, who shall remain nameless, for about the same amount of time. he seems really sweet, but i kind of worry about him. he's soooo much more invested in it than i am. we aren't even official, and he calls me 'babe' and 'baby'. it makes me feel good to know that someone cares about you that much, but i don't know that i can reciprocate the feelings as strongly. i have serious relationship issues. in fact, i call myself "relationship retarded" because, well, i'm twenty years old, and i've literally never dated anyone. i've been on a grand total of two dates, which were my sophomore year of high school [therefore, they don't really count]. i don't know. i'm just trying to play it by ear. 

i have realized, though, that i'm not one of those giddy oh-my-god-i-have-a-bee eff girls, which i'm kind of glad about, because to be honest, i am a bit annoyed by those girls. i think pda's are completely unnecessary. he's coming up to see me this weekend, and he can't stop talking about it, so i know he's excited. i'll be glad to see him. it's just really confusing. 

also... i am definitely going to Spain single. [if i get all my paperwork in :P] There is NO WAY i'm going to be in the midst of all those amazingly beautiful men and be tied down to someone thousands of miles away. i should probably let this boy know about that. i just HATE hurting people's feelings. i'm too much of a people pleaser. and every time it screws me over. i just need to learn already!

well... that's my bit, hopefully i'll keep writing when i need a study break. 

peace out!

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