It's a Liz Lemon kind of life...

Blerg. These past few weeks have FLOWN by, and I have definitely experienced some new things and new feelings about my future RN status.

First off, it's going to be super weird being out of school in like... 10 weeks. WHAT?! B. I got my NCLEX packet yesterday, which means I need to start studying more. LICENSING EXAMS MAKE ME SO NERVOUS!! 3. I am feeling a little iffy about where I'll be working. I super extra really really want to be in New York, but as you all know, the cost of living there is ridiculous, and I would really like to find a job quick so that I'm not eating Ramen and tuna for the first three months I live there. I may have to find a job doing something else until I can get a job as a nurse, and that's even scarier because I have no idea what my budget will be.

I've applied for about 10 jobs, and gotten turned down for about 5. I've put in applications at the hospital I'm doing practicum at, and haven't heard anything, so maybe I'll just peek my face in the manager's office and show her my moves. It would be nice if someone said "Oh, yeah, we could hire you even though you don't have the mandatory one year of experience." Seriously, how am I supposed to get experience if no one will give me experience?! BAH!

So, so stressful. BUTT: I was talking to the lovely Rachel last night and she suggested that I document my experience as a nursing student, and as that is nearly over, I have decided to VLOG my first year as a graduated college student. I think it will be fun, and maybe some indie film maker will be like "BY GEORGE THIS IS SUNDANCE MATERIAL!" and then I can win like 21057923 academy awards and be famous and not HAVE to worry about being a nurse anymore. I can just be pretty.

Welp, here's to hoping the job search goes better, and that I can hang on til graduation.

Realizations are a bitch

Well.. over the last month I have realized that finding a job, even as a nurse, won't be as easy as I was hoping, or as I expected. I feel like there is a clock ticking away and I'm running out of time! So stressful!

My absolute dream is moving to New York, but the licensure thing is definitely throwing me for a loop. I just don't know if I'll have time to get all that done before someone wants to hire me. I've been applying all over. With all kinds of care: oncology, home health, med/surg. Crazy, crazy, crazy.

I have to say, though, that since I have made this lovely announcement, people have been so great about helping me: offering me a couch to crash on, I even have one person who is trying to help me get a job at her hospital: Sloan-Kettering. It's a legit place, lemme tell ya!

I don't know. I would love to get the hell out of dodge as soon as possible, but I don't know if that will be tangible. I keep closing my eyes and seeing myself hopping on and off the subway--which, by the way, after this snowpocalypse, I ABSOLUTELY NEVER WANT TO HAVE A CAR AGAIN. What an effing story.

Let's go down that road for a second, because it's just ridiculous. So basically, this picture is what happened to my car. I went to clinical that day, being the good little student that I am, and watched as the world slowly turned completely bleak and white. I finally left at about 4, so my day was only 9 hours, because if I hadn't, I would have spent the night. And people, that was the LAST thing I wanted to do. So I bundle up, go to the employee lot which is 1093857102398 miles away, and what do I find? The snow plows have boxed me in. EFF. So then, I traipsed back the 1093857102398 miles back to the hospital and batted my eyes at a dude with a caterpillar so he could dig me out.

I then proceeded to have a heart attack the whole way home because I couldn't see but 5 cm in front of my car. I finally made it to little 42nd street, and tried driving down Booth Place. No dice. Stuck. So I parked on 42nd, thinking "I'll move it when the plows come by". Turns out 42nd is an emergency snow route, though there are ABSOLUTELY NO SIGNS, and my car was towed. THEN, I go down to the shadiest tow lot on the freaking planet to retrieve Baby Jetta, pay the 180 bucks, and try to go on my not-so-merry way. I then find the car shimmying at 60mph: my alignment got fucked by the hooks on the truck. So THEN, I had to pay another 260 to have my alignment fixed and rods replaced since they had been bent. Fantastico.

Needless to say, my blood was boiling for about 5 days.

But back to the situation at hand: New Yaaawwwkkk and jobs, yes. So... basically I will take wherever will hire me at this point. I am trying my hardest to do what I really want, but that may not happen right away, and I'm kind of ok with that. I've applied for about 10 jobs so far, most at Shawnee Mission here in KC. I applied for a couple Home Health agencies in San Francisco, Denver, and I think Chicago, Sloan-Kettering in New York, a couple of Home Health agencies there I think... Everywhere basically.

Being a grown-up is definitely not all it was cracked up to be. 10-year-olds of the world: heed my words. Stop wishing for it.